Today I don't have a lot of interesting things to say. I guess what've been going around my head the most are a ton of questions that I don't really have the answers to yet. For example, this whole 'job after graduation' thing is pretty scary. I think I could feel a million times less stressed right now if I only knew what was going to happen after May 12. In my mind, I can see the calendar dates clearly up until then. And after May 12, it turns into a dark fog. I don't know if I'll still be in Des Moines, back in Minnesota, trying a new state... I think that I'd like to stay in Des Moines. I know there are so many people who want to escape the Midwest, especially Iowa, but it's really not that bad. I've actually grown to like Iowa.

I know that life won't stop after I graduate if I don't find a job, but for some reason it feels like it. It feels like if I don't find a job with my major that I'll get sucked into this black hole where it will be twice as difficult to come out and get back on the 'right path.' And as much as I love my parents, I do not want to live with them again. I'm sure worrying won't solve any of this and somehow something will figure itself out, but until then it's going to keep disrupting my peace of mind.